Still crying

First let me say I am so excited to announce that Teddy has a guardian home. He is leaving us on Saturday to go live with Mike and Elizabeth in So Portland. They are such a wonderful couple and I know they will love him as much as I would. They are so ready for a puppy and Teddy is so ready to be their little boy.

I thought I had done all of my crying for Bella. I am at the point were I can look at her pictures and smile at her memory. Little things will make me sad, but I can move past them and smile when I remember her.  But today I when I got the mail there was a bill from my vet. When I opened it and saw in black and white the surgery, autopsy and cremation it really made it all real. I sat in my car and bawled for 15 minutes. Will this pain ever stop? I miss my sweet Bella so much.